Ever have a day where you suddenly realize that all the little defense mechnisms you have/had for dealing with day-to-day stress have been torn to shreds? And worse, when you know that you're the reason they're destroyed, and that you're the one who has to rebuild them from scratch. Yeah, I'm having one of those days. Doesn't help the reason they're in shreds is due to the fact that I thought I didn't need them. I thought I had a support. Now I don't think I have that support anymore. It took me 16 years to build up defenses the first time. At this rate, I'll be 40 before I finally get used to my current situation. I don't want to be like this til I'm 40...


Alright, so technically I know I won't be. Life changes too fast to think I'll be in the same situation I am now in the future. This'll likely blow over tomorrow. Likely it'll blow over before this ever gets seen by the public's eye, given otherskies.net's state of non-existance. It better. But in the meantime, it's a nice place to rant.
. Kat Wreaked Havoc at 12:21 AM